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Name:
Steff
Birthdate:
16 July
External Services:
  • unable_to_smile@livejournal.com
  • BurnleysMyGod AIM status




'ello. my name is steff, and i'm seventeen. i live in the wilkes-barre area ( nepa ) of pennsylvania and am a senior at wvw ( wyoming valley west/waste high school ). i have an absolutely amazing boyfriend, eric, who's a senior at pittston area. life seems pretty good, ayy? well, in reality, some aspects are; but truthfully, i'm the poster child for prozac; and that's no understatement. what else can i tell you about myself?..i'm sXe. that means no smoking, no drinking, no drugs. and no, i am not one of those people who thinks they're cool all of a sudden to say that they're edge. i've never done one of those things ever, in my life. and no, not even an attempt. but that doesn't mean i discriminate against those who do that kind of stuff. nope. i am completely non-judgemental, open, understanding, and honest. seriously, i mean, i go up to random people, and true to fact, have made good friends with them. it's kind of kooky. but anyways, i'm also atheist ( don't believe in god/a god ). i like men and women, and have known this fact since i was six years old. but please, don't make me retell the stories.




just thought i'd add a pic of me; for added humor.



my life is: spending time with eric & close friends. without them, i'd be sixfeetunder. seriously. i also am always at shows. shows, shows, shows is what it is. supporting local ( made national ) boys breaking benjamin is my LIFE. anyone who knows me well enough knows that, obviously, for example, just check out my screen name (above), dedicated to lead singer benjamin burnley.
my life also is: listening to music. this is number one. without music, i'd be long-time dead as well. most played music is: breaking ben, of course; eighteen visions, atreyu, and cKy; along with tons of hardcore bands. check out some of the banners below:


















The mirror doesn't look like them
I guess it never will
What would you say
If I took a piece for me?
Happiness is your best friend
It doesn't appeal to me
Have you ever seen me?



just a papercut to spill your blood. just a papercut to spill your blood. i hear screams come out the window. maybe next time your caress won't feel like rusted nails. i am the son of rejection. so hold me to the light. tell me it's right to feel dead inside. i won't break, not today. i won't break, not today.
dead like me. dead like me. because beneath this stare is a desperate fight
to stay alive. tell me i'm not alone. whisper that breath that fuels this
fight. from now on, this is my life. discontent for the rest of mankind. i'll
always remember the way that touch felt and how i was so close. four seconds away from death. three seconds away from you. two seconds away from death. one
second away from you. i won't break, not today. i won't break, not today. dead like me. dead like me. try to find reasons to resist, and i won't break, not
today. try to find reasons to resist, and i won't break, not today. bring it. i
look back on a broken mess. pictures shattered with shards of glass. this is what my life means to me. i look back on a broken mess. pictures shattered with
shards of glass. this is what my life means to me. i won't break, not today. i
won't break, not today. dead like me. dead like me.



12 stones, 36 crazyfists, a perfect circle, aaron fink, afi, agents of the sun, alkaline trio, an american liar, anamia, anti-cliques, anti-everything, anti-homophobia, anti-popularity, anti-racism, anti-school, anti-you, antique stores, atreyu, audiovent, avenged sevenfold, bam margera, being a roadie, being bisexual, being broke, being crazy, being yourself, ben burnley, bisexuality, bleach, bleeding through, bon jovi, books, brandon boyd, breaking benjamin, breaking stuff, candy, chevelle, chex mix, chinese food, chris lightcap, cky, clubbing, comedy central, constipation, cracker jack prizes, darkness, davey havok, deftones, depression, derek spencer, disturbed, dollar stores, driver, eating, ecs, eighteen visions, electric candy shop, expressing yourself, finch, from autumn to ashes, full moons, funeral for a friend, garage bands, gay rights, godsmack, good grief, grunge is not dead, hair bands, hating courtney love, him, hollywood records, ian wiseman, incesticide, incubus, jelly bracelets, jeremy hummel, killswitch engage, kurt cobain, lifer, madtv, mark klepaski, meatloaf, messenger bags, mittens, my chemical romance, my dying bride, mydownfall, negative space, nick coyle, nin, nine inch nails, nirvana, nirvana unplugged, piercings, plastic things, poetry, poison, polka dots, prozac, raspberry peach snapple, real punk rock, roses, saturate, seattle rock boys, self-confidence, self-piercing, sesame street, shadows fall, shows, silverchair, skateboarding, stalking people, starry nights, strangers with candy, striped socks, suicide, talk shows, tattoos, teddy bears, teletubbies, the beach, the butterfly effect, the cure, the curse, the ramones, the salvation army, the union underground, thrift stores, thunderstorms, tool, true love, trustkill records, vampires, victory records, ville valo, vintage stores, violin, walls of jericho, we are not alone, wreaking havoc, writing, zebrahead

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